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[wedonot]

[Private to Morgana, backdated to after Mozenrath's post]

Mozenrath's asked me to be your interim warden for the foreseeable future. How are you doing?

Comments

[wedonot]

Are you hurt? [He has spent a lot of time in the infirmary recently, so he should know, but since his attention has been sort of organized like Erik > everything else, and he spent the first couple hours back half asleep and drugged up, her coming in might have slipped under his radar.

Or you should go see someone right now because not treating your injuries is bad. :|]

[youwillgotohell]

I'm fine.

[Just completely fucking freaked. He's not in the category of 'people who would probably never hurt me' anymore, and that's always frightening.

Also 'I'm fine' is hilariously inaccurate, but she's at least unhurt.]

Were you healed?

[wedonot]

[Yeah, Charles is interpreting that as "unhurt" versus, say, completely fucking traumatized.]

My ribs should take a few weeks to heal completely, but I'm fine. It's more annoying than anything else. Thank you for helping me.

[youwillgotohell]

[That's why you're a smarty, Charles. B(]

It was nothing. I'm

[There's a pause, cause gratitude means more to her than it really should.]

I'm glad you're feeling better.

[wedonot]

[Take the praise Morgana, you did good. :c]

Do you need anything?

[youwillgotohell]

[No what's that how do]

No.

[WAIT yes. She hesitates another moment, because Mozenrath had already made a decision - but her hands hadn't felt particularly steady lately, and there could be no harm in asking.

As long as it didn't get back to Mozenrath.]

I don't have many clothes here. I'd like new dresses. If the Admiral would listen.

[wedonot]

[Charles isn't a rat and also suspects nothing. B(]

I'll put in a request. Is there anything specific you'd like them to be?

[youwillgotohell]

No.

[Wait never trust the Admiral]

From my time. Clothes I've worn in the past, perhaps.

Trousers wouldn't go amiss.

[wedonot]

Alright. I'll bring them by once the Admiral's dropped them off. How have you been liking your new room?

[youwillgotohell]

Thank you.

It [She was maybe going to say something else here but. Fuck it.] It makes me feel like a child.

[Also she has been drinking tea and occasionally remembering that it can't sustain you here. B(]

[wedonot]

[Morgana we've talked about this. B(]

Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

[youwillgotohell]

[But tea is good for you B(]

Do you enjoy feeling like a child? [You can hear the dryness if you try.]

[wedonot]

[Not as the only thing you're eating. :|]

I haven't really felt like a child since I was nine, to be honest.

[youwillgotohell]

[WELL IT WAS IN WONDERLAND]

Why?

[wedonot]

[YOU'RE NOT IN WONDERLAND ANYMORE, DOROTHY.

Wrong girl in a blue dress excuse me.]

Telepathy makes it difficult to hang on to childhood in some ways. And then when my sister came along a few years later, I basically helped raise her, in some ways. I was always sort of mentally old for my age.

[youwillgotohell]

[EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING.]

I've noticed.

[She is trying to make a joke B(]

[wedonot]

[It's funny. :c]

Yes, I know, shocking that I'm not actually sixty.

[youwillgotohell]

It's a surprise every time I see you.

[wedonot]

Is there anything you'd want to change to make you feel less like a child?

[youwillgotohell]

The bookcases are bolted down.

[A pause, and she grudgingly admits:]

I can understand why.

But nothing is familiar here. I don't have my magic. I have one dress.

[It's actually pretty threadbare, she's been wearing it for like a year and a half. B(]

I hate it here. [She doesn't mean the room. :c]

[wedonot]

I know. [And he hesitates before saying anything else, because he feels bad, admitting this to people sometimes.]

I do, too, sometimes.

[youwillgotohell]

You could leave.

[PLEASE DON'T LEAVE is what she doesn't say.]

[wedonot]

I won't. I'd never leave Erik here by himself.

[youwillgotohell]

[Yeah there is a very long pause on her end, because she thinks it's good of Charles; but when Merlin said something similar, she wanted to hate him for it.]

Merlin said he wouldn't leave Arthur. Or me.

[wedonot]

[... Well.]

How do you feel about that?