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[wedonot]

[Private to Morgana, backdated to after Mozenrath's post]

Mozenrath's asked me to be your interim warden for the foreseeable future. How are you doing?

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[wedonot]

[Wow, excuse Charles as he has some 'I am vaguely uncomfortable with the not quite but kinda parallelism here' feels. B(]

It could still be different. There are plenty of ways to interpret that message. What if it means something less literal, like you and Merlin working together means doom for your old ideas?

Unless she explicitly said "Merlin is going to kill you and there's nothing you can do to stop it", you don't know exactly what she meant.

[youwillgotohell]

'He is your destiny, and he is your doom.'

It seemed straightforward to me.

[Yeah that's a snarky text, what of it. B(]

And he was the reason I died. He wasn't the one to run me through, but he made me helpless. He was my doom.

[wedonot]

But you can change that. Both of you, in your own time, but it can be done.

[youwillgotohell]

How?

[wedonot]

If the answer was that simple, I would have given you it already. And figured out how the hell to solve my problems instead of sitting around moping.

[youwillgotohell]

Then maybe it can't be changed, and you're only too hopeful.

[wedonot]

Maybe it's just difficult to quantify, and the world's made you cynical.

I don't know how it could happen because there are so many factors to take into account. Maybe a flood forces the two of you to put aside your differences and you eventually realize that's more beneficial to everyone than fighting indefinitely. Maybe you'll never truly forgive him, but you'll find something else that makes you happy that doesn't involve getting revenge and taking the throne. I'm just a telepath, I can't predict the future.

[youwillgotohell]

I can. Do you know how often my dreams have come true?

[wedonot]

No.

[youwillgotohell]

Every time. What I see always comes to pass.

[And she hesitates for a long moment before adding,] I've seen a terrible battlefield, and Emrys standing over me. I think

[It makes her scared, and angry, and it's so difficult to finish.]

I was begging for my life.

[wedonot]

[He wants to say Merlin would never kill her. It's hard, sometimes, to look at their situation and be objective, because there are moments of such startling similarity between them and him and Erik, but there are differences. Major ones. He understands why Merlin made some of the decisions he's made, but Charles would never poison Erik, even if it meant destruction. He couldn't do it. He didn't know if that made him naive and Merlin smart, or made one of them a better man than the other, and he couldn't promise Merlin would spare her life if it came down to that.]

It still might not happen. We can change things here, Morgana.

[youwillgotohell]

I've been trying to prevent my visions since I first started having them.

[And she doesn't want to admit defeat, because saying that battlefield will happen will mean she's lost, and there's no point in going on - but if she doesn't go on, it will never happen, and it's meant to happen.

It wasn't enough that she was born with magic, she had to be given this extra curse. She hates it, all too often.]

[wedonot]

I still don't believe our destinies have already been decided for us. What's the point of doing anything if everything we'll ever do has already been decided for us?

[youwillgotohell]

Because we aren't meant to know.

[wedonot]

In worlds like ours, where people can predict the future, that seems a bit flawed, wouldn't you say?

[youwillgotohell]

Maybe it's a flaw in me.

[wedonot]

There's nothing wrong with you, Morgana.

[youwillgotohell]

There are no answers to anything, Charles. [Not even that. She doesn't really think there's something wrong with her, though sometimes she's afraid she's as flawed as Uther. But. Pushing that aside.]

Maybe there never will be.

[wedonot]

And maybe there will be.

[youwillgotohell]

I wish I had your hope.

[wedonot]

I can't blame you for having a difficult time sharing it.

[youwillgotohell]

I didn't think you would.