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[wedonot]

[Private to Morgana, backdated to after Mozenrath's post]

Mozenrath's asked me to be your interim warden for the foreseeable future. How are you doing?

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[youwillgotohell]

Every time. What I see always comes to pass.

[And she hesitates for a long moment before adding,] I've seen a terrible battlefield, and Emrys standing over me. I think

[It makes her scared, and angry, and it's so difficult to finish.]

I was begging for my life.

[wedonot]

[He wants to say Merlin would never kill her. It's hard, sometimes, to look at their situation and be objective, because there are moments of such startling similarity between them and him and Erik, but there are differences. Major ones. He understands why Merlin made some of the decisions he's made, but Charles would never poison Erik, even if it meant destruction. He couldn't do it. He didn't know if that made him naive and Merlin smart, or made one of them a better man than the other, and he couldn't promise Merlin would spare her life if it came down to that.]

It still might not happen. We can change things here, Morgana.

[youwillgotohell]

I've been trying to prevent my visions since I first started having them.

[And she doesn't want to admit defeat, because saying that battlefield will happen will mean she's lost, and there's no point in going on - but if she doesn't go on, it will never happen, and it's meant to happen.

It wasn't enough that she was born with magic, she had to be given this extra curse. She hates it, all too often.]

[wedonot]

I still don't believe our destinies have already been decided for us. What's the point of doing anything if everything we'll ever do has already been decided for us?

[youwillgotohell]

Because we aren't meant to know.

[wedonot]

In worlds like ours, where people can predict the future, that seems a bit flawed, wouldn't you say?

[youwillgotohell]

Maybe it's a flaw in me.

[wedonot]

There's nothing wrong with you, Morgana.

[youwillgotohell]

There are no answers to anything, Charles. [Not even that. She doesn't really think there's something wrong with her, though sometimes she's afraid she's as flawed as Uther. But. Pushing that aside.]

Maybe there never will be.

[wedonot]

And maybe there will be.

[youwillgotohell]

I wish I had your hope.

[wedonot]

I can't blame you for having a difficult time sharing it.

[youwillgotohell]

I didn't think you would.