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[wedonot]

[Private to Morgana, backdated to after Mozenrath's post]

Mozenrath's asked me to be your interim warden for the foreseeable future. How are you doing?

Comments

[wedonot]

[Charles isn't a rat and also suspects nothing. B(]

I'll put in a request. Is there anything specific you'd like them to be?

[youwillgotohell]

No.

[Wait never trust the Admiral]

From my time. Clothes I've worn in the past, perhaps.

Trousers wouldn't go amiss.

[wedonot]

Alright. I'll bring them by once the Admiral's dropped them off. How have you been liking your new room?

[youwillgotohell]

Thank you.

It [She was maybe going to say something else here but. Fuck it.] It makes me feel like a child.

[Also she has been drinking tea and occasionally remembering that it can't sustain you here. B(]

[wedonot]

[Morgana we've talked about this. B(]

Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

[youwillgotohell]

[But tea is good for you B(]

Do you enjoy feeling like a child? [You can hear the dryness if you try.]

[wedonot]

[Not as the only thing you're eating. :|]

I haven't really felt like a child since I was nine, to be honest.

[youwillgotohell]

[WELL IT WAS IN WONDERLAND]

Why?

[wedonot]

[YOU'RE NOT IN WONDERLAND ANYMORE, DOROTHY.

Wrong girl in a blue dress excuse me.]

Telepathy makes it difficult to hang on to childhood in some ways. And then when my sister came along a few years later, I basically helped raise her, in some ways. I was always sort of mentally old for my age.

[youwillgotohell]

[EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING.]

I've noticed.

[She is trying to make a joke B(]

[wedonot]

[It's funny. :c]

Yes, I know, shocking that I'm not actually sixty.

[youwillgotohell]

It's a surprise every time I see you.

[wedonot]

Is there anything you'd want to change to make you feel less like a child?

[youwillgotohell]

The bookcases are bolted down.

[A pause, and she grudgingly admits:]

I can understand why.

But nothing is familiar here. I don't have my magic. I have one dress.

[It's actually pretty threadbare, she's been wearing it for like a year and a half. B(]

I hate it here. [She doesn't mean the room. :c]

[wedonot]

I know. [And he hesitates before saying anything else, because he feels bad, admitting this to people sometimes.]

I do, too, sometimes.

[youwillgotohell]

You could leave.

[PLEASE DON'T LEAVE is what she doesn't say.]

[wedonot]

I won't. I'd never leave Erik here by himself.

[youwillgotohell]

[Yeah there is a very long pause on her end, because she thinks it's good of Charles; but when Merlin said something similar, she wanted to hate him for it.]

Merlin said he wouldn't leave Arthur. Or me.

[wedonot]

[... Well.]

How do you feel about that?

[youwillgotohell]

He's lying. Arthur's the only one that's ever mattered to him.

[wedonot]

How do you feel?

[youwillgotohell]

[Neglected. Unwanted. Useless, helpless, never good enough.]

He tried to kill me. I don't care what he thinks.

[wedonot]

I don't quite believe that. [Or you know. AT ALL.]

[youwillgotohell]

Are you reading my mind, Charles? [Cause that's cheating B(]

[wedonot]

No. [He hasn't been using it all that much since port unless it's to bother Erik/make sure he's still alive. B(]