wedonot | FORTY NINE ✖ VOICE/SPAM

[Private to Lua]

Anya's asked me to share the conversation we had during the flood a few weeks ago with you. When would be a good time for you?

[Private to Merlin]

How long has Morgana been back? [He is willing to bet that you've known she's back for a while. B(]

[Filtered to Jean and Alex]

Arkady wanted to speak with me and a few other mutants about things she's experienced in her world. Would you two be interested in coming along with me?

[Open Spam for the CES]

[Erik's assessment to Moira during the flood - that Charles wasn't depressed and was still an optimist - was accurate. He'd come a long way from the crushing, oppressive, miserable depression that had followed him since Cuba, and things felt better, if not perfect.

But - as it often seemed to happen - recently, things had gone from fine to getting progressively harder to deal with, and Charles needed space and time to deal with it, to give himself time to rebuild his defenses and come back ready for more of it, which was why he was currently running through the CES in sweats and had been for the better part of an hour. The CES was currently a forest, probably somewhere in North America or maybe Europe. The air was chilly and damp, but not enough to be uncomfortable, and when he finally stopped, panting, leaning against a tree, he squinted up at the sky and trying to determine if it was actually going to start raining or not.

Ever since his spine had been healed, he'd maybe overcompensated for the time he'd spent in the wheelchair, or maybe it had something to do with what had happened with the Vanquish, but either way, he often went on runs in the morning. Today was different in that he was pushing himself to the point of exhaustion, because as long as he kept moving, it felt like he was doing something, allowed him to turn his mind off for a while, instead of examining his guilt about what he'd done to Moira, or his conflicting feelings about Anya, or his worry about Morgana. It was hard not to feel trapped, here, but the CES helped, and so he didn't move to leave just yet, wanting to catch his breath before he headed back in.]

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[So they have done a whole lot of not talking about this, haven't they. Yeah they have. Which means Charles is getting a ping.]

So.

[Oh fuck you, what do you want. B(]

So?

[YOU KNOW.]

Moira?

[NOPE COMFORTABLE IN THIS STATE OF DENIAL.]

I was glad to see the two of you are still capable of interacting civilly.

[WELL YOU ARE ABOUT TO BE EXILED BY THE GOOD STATE OF DENIAL]

It was downright shocking.

[BUT IT'S SO NICE HERE.]

What did you want to talk about?

Actually, I thought you might need to talk.

I'm fine. [LIAR!!]

[Oh Charles, if only you could see the LOOK being leveled at the wall. B|]

Somehow I doubt that.

What do you want me to say, Erik?

Whatever you need to, but aren't letting yourself.

[...] I didn't realize you were that close.

What do you mean?

The flood overlapped Valentine's Day. [Come on Charles it's p obvious okay]

[NOPE PLAYING STUPID WILL MEAN HE DOESN'T HAVE TO TALK.]

Did you honestly miss all the flirting? I'm fairly certain she was considering hitting me a few times to get me to shut up.

No, though I made every attempt. Yet she was still the one here, and I don't believe you haven't flirted with a dozen drunk coeds.

[Charles sighs and even though you can't see it, is rubbing a hand over his forehead.]

She was a good friend, Erik. And we got very close after what happened in Cuba. [And yet he never talks about her and does not sound thrilled to be discussing it now. c:]

[WELL ISN'T THAT CURIOUS.]

You hardly mention her.

So?

Really, Charles. [COME ON NOW BRO.]

[FINE.]

I wiped her memory so that she wouldn't be able to tell the government about the house in Westchester and sent her away for her own safety, and ours. [And guess who haaaates himself for it.] Satisfied?

[Welp.]

You did what you had to.

[Nope, sorry, not hearing that, having a bit of a self hatred-y meltdown rn. :|] But I didn't have to. I didn't even ask her if it's what she wanted, or explain to her why I thought it was a good idea, I just did it, and I've been beating myself up about it ever since because it was just so bloody selfish of me to do.

[gdi Charles what has he said about this :|]

Have you completely lost your mind? She was a government agent, do you really think they wouldn't have made her talk? They fired on us, even knowing she was there, how else were you going to protect the house?

[SELF. HATREDY. MELTDOWN.]

We could have figured something out! I could have wiped their minds, I don't know! I could have at least explained myself to her!

How many minds were on those ships do you think, Charles? How many in the CIA did Shaw leave alive that knew about us? You did what had to be done - what had to be done, and if you hadn't, how long do you think it would have been before they moved in?

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