[He shook his head.] I've never done it on myself before. If there was another telepath on board I trusted enough to do it, I suppose I could ask them to, but I wouldn't run the risk of accidentally psychically lobotomizing myself.

[He hesitates a beat, not exactly sure he wants to fess up to this.]

And I don't exactly want to forget all of it. I know I could never be that person, but the fact that he was willing to go so far to- [He trails off again, not really feeling comfortable referring to his paralysis directly in front of Erik.] He let himself become a monster for selfish reasons. I don't want to be anything like that person.