[And again he hesitates, because he almost wants to confide in him that sometimes he's entirely overwhelmed by the idea of what they were supposed to do. There were so many possible futures and all of them seemed distinctly bad, and he'd just been a irresponsible ass working to get his doctorate less than a year ago. He'd never anticipated things working out like this.
But it's strange being vulnerable around Erik, and he doesn't like it, so he holds himself back from now.] I'm still not sure how I feel about the sneak previews of our potential futures we've been getting.
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[And again he hesitates, because he almost wants to confide in him that sometimes he's entirely overwhelmed by the idea of what they were supposed to do. There were so many possible futures and all of them seemed distinctly bad, and he'd just been a irresponsible ass working to get his doctorate less than a year ago. He'd never anticipated things working out like this.
But it's strange being vulnerable around Erik, and he doesn't like it, so he holds himself back from now.] I'm still not sure how I feel about the sneak previews of our potential futures we've been getting.