[They are, and it infuriates him. This place is always going to trap him, always force him to confront and realize what an awful person he actually is, show him in exquisite details all the things he did and didn't do that wound up costing him everything, and he wants to scream.
He wants Erik, too. Even if it had been this other version of him - one that seems too similar to himself - it would at least be something, some reassurance and familiar comfort.
He wants to look to Morgana for that, too, and there's a small, childish part of him that's likely a scar from years he'd rather not remember that wants to turn to her and bury his face in her shoulder, while another, far less childish part wants to kiss her breathless and hold her close, prove that someone loves her just the way she is and that she should love herself, too. She owes herself that much.
But he does neither, glances away uncomfortably.]
I saw Erik's graduation message. [And his voice sounds hollow, bitter.] And I know what's going to happen when this is over.
[To him, he means. He's going to die, and something in Erik will snap and after that... who knows. Erik hadn't, and no one else here will, either.
He looks back at her, and his expression is... complicated. Angry and bitter and desperately unhappy, and his voice is rough.]
I'm glad at least one of his counterparts is free.
[He means it. He might be a monster, but Erik deserved so much more than he had in life, on the Barge, everything, and he wants this for the man he knows more than he could possibly articulate.]
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He wants Erik, too. Even if it had been this other version of him - one that seems too similar to himself - it would at least be something, some reassurance and familiar comfort.
He wants to look to Morgana for that, too, and there's a small, childish part of him that's likely a scar from years he'd rather not remember that wants to turn to her and bury his face in her shoulder, while another, far less childish part wants to kiss her breathless and hold her close, prove that someone loves her just the way she is and that she should love herself, too. She owes herself that much.
But he does neither, glances away uncomfortably.]
I saw Erik's graduation message. [And his voice sounds hollow, bitter.] And I know what's going to happen when this is over.
[To him, he means. He's going to die, and something in Erik will snap and after that... who knows. Erik hadn't, and no one else here will, either.
He looks back at her, and his expression is... complicated. Angry and bitter and desperately unhappy, and his voice is rough.]
I'm glad at least one of his counterparts is free.
[He means it. He might be a monster, but Erik deserved so much more than he had in life, on the Barge, everything, and he wants this for the man he knows more than he could possibly articulate.]