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I am, too. [He's been back for all of an hour or so, and he already misses Erik like you wouldn't believe. They've spent so much time together that it's hard to think about all the things he's going to have to do alone now, and while he knows he's capable of it, he still doesn't like that he has to be.

Of course, it's not like he wants Erik to come back, but he'll still miss having him to turn to when things get difficult, miss knowing that there's at least one person on board who's always going to have his back.

And then there's just the fact that Erik is an amazing person that can help so many people, and it's sort of a shame someone like River won't be able to learn from him, or appreciate having him to talk to, to share experiences with.]