He was your father. I'd imagine that would be a difficult thing to commit to, let alone follow through on. [Although it does make him think of someone else, and how it hadn't been difficult to lash out against the person who had destroyed your life, and made having a future independent of that pain and hurt seem impossible. But that had been so, so different, and he tries to push the memory aside.]

We don't have to come up with an alternative today, but I want you to know that you're not here because you wanted to get away from him.